Feed The Plants

I'm remembering that time in my life where I hated to admit growth. Growth, change, maturity. All of these required me to admit to being less than something in order to see improvement. That feels rather high and mighty to admit to such a thing. Honest, I never felt I was all-that-and-a-bag-of-chips as much as it may sound. I truly was just believing that being anything less than amazing was a sign of weakness. 

Good thing 'amazing' and 'weakness' are subjective. 

Putting it all out there

While not a revelation necessarily, I'm thinking a lot about growth lately. While lingering in bed and enjoying the singing birds outside my window, it occurred to me that, although people grow, not everyone is as vocal about it. 

I'm over the moon tickled presently about conquering insecurities, and improving dusty corners of my life.  Until just recently though, I hadn't really considered where this new urge... this desire... cropped up from, and what has me wanting to be so transparent. 

Miracle Grow

Like plants, people and lions need encouragement sometimes to grow. Growth happens whether we tend to what's happening or not. Weeds and bad seeds grow and suffocate the lush, happy, life-breathing bits and pieces of us. Encouragement in the form of sunbeams, food, and water, along with a bit of selective removal of the crap we need to kill (or plant elsewhere) ... 

I'm guilty of feeding the wrong things, many times in my life, and recently as well. Why do I bother sharing? In the event my words are like miracle grow somehow to someone else, and a little weeding breathes life into your personal garden - that's why. 

Sunbeam naps are good... 

As much as you're convinced that you've arrived... that you've matured and are now done growing... you're wrong. Something grows. Whether it's the love you have for your cat, the hatred you feel towards your boss, the debt you're accumulating on that shiny new credit card. Just don't let the ugly, smothering weeds and nasties shove the green and happy out of your life. Some things are harder to kill when they take over. 

It's not everyone's deal, to share openly. And one should never feel pressured to change. I simply challenge you to spend a little time in the sunbeams. It's easier to see when a little light is shed, and the warmth of the life giving rays may give you the strength to tackle the weeds. 

Blame Spring...  If I go back through old journals or blogs, growth is always the theme. If you're interested in what I had to say in April of '08, this is one of my favorites.