Often, I have tried to convince myself to be consistent with things as simple as writing. There's a lot to be said about two different schools of thought.
- Write every chance you get. No matter what you're writing about or for, write on a regular basis. Practice makes perfect or something. At the very least, the exercise of writing acts as a platform to dump what's in your head. Sharing every thought with the world, or even a select few, is hardly a requirement. Just write.
- Write only when you have something brilliant to say.
I'm definitely not practicing the latter. Especially right now.
Some of my closest friends know this little secret about me already. Some people who read this blog (for whatever reason) may not be shocked by this little secret.
Ready? Here it is.
Writing terrifies me.
There was a time when I believed I could not write. I could not do it. I believed I was not smart enough. My words did not matter. My words made no sense. So, I try not to wait for only those moments when I have something brilliant to say. I try, instead, to just write something. Anything really. Just to remind myself that I can.
I will never be a wordsmith. I will never feel I am hugely talented. But I refuse to believe I am stupid or unable. I am easily excitable, I jumble words together, and I don't always succeed in making a clear point.
Yet, I write.
I even get paid to do it.
Life is funny.
When I write in my blog, sometimes I would get a few words out, decide I either wasn't truly able to say what I was trying to say, or just forgot the point that came to me so vividly only moments before. The end result would be that nothing was posted, I would feel even more disappointed and I would somewhat isolate myself even further just because I would not be confident in being able to say anything.
ReplyDeleteJust writing for the sake of writing is helping me with this a lot.